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Me I’m Not

and it’s happening
never planned on this
you got something i need
kind of dangerous
and i’m losing control
i’m not used to this
what you want from me?
i’m not used to this
can’t seem to shut it off
this thing i’ve begun
and it’s hard to tell – just
where it’s coming from
and it’s hard to see
what i’m capable of
and it’s hard to believe – just
what i’ve become

hey
can we stop?
me, i’m not

i can swallow it down
keep it all inside
i define myself
by how well i hide
feel it coming apart
well at least i tried
i can win this war
by knowing not to fight
if i take it all back
some way somehow
if i knew back then
what i know right now

hey
can we stop?
me, i’m not

-Trent Reznor

diet caffeine free

So I’ve been back on the diet since the 4th of July and it’s been 8 days since I”ve been off caffeine.
I have a lot more energy lately which brings me up to everyone else’s level since my energy is typically low.

Caffeine cravings are pretty much gone at this point. Have been drinking nothing but water and eating right. Working out every day.

My good friend caffeine

Yesterday’s headache was pretty bad. Worse than today… but it still lingers. I am going through another attempt at quitting caffeine again. I am constantly struggling with getting hooked on it and not being able to stop. I’m not sure how long this attempt at quitting will last but I hope that it lasts forever. I am tired all of the time. Mostly depressed. I assume this will last a few more days.

It’s not like I’m doing drugs or drinking, it’s just caffeine. Though, I would say the base addictive response is similar and if you are a person with compulsive behavior then it can lead to trouble.

Here’s something that I read today…

“Caffeine is a naturally occurring molecule that can be found in over sixty different plants. The caffeine acts as a natural pesticide, and protects the plants by paralyzing or killing insects that attempt to feed on the plant. The most widely used caffeine containing plants are coffee, tea. The caffeine molecule is classified as an alkaloid, meaning that it is a nitrogen-based compound that is extracted from plants.”
Source: http://itech.dickinson.edu/chemistry/?cat=92

…and for good measure, my favorite YouTube Caffeine video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QS5StIDr4o&feature=fvst