I’ve given myself the challenge of not complaining lately and I have been failing miserably. To the outsider it would appear that I have nothing to complain about. Except everyone has their problems. Hidden just below the surface. Behind the masks we wear. Who wants to drag others into their misery anyway? I had given myself the challenge of only thinking positive thoughts when I was in my early 20’s. It literally changed my world. I had the best two weeks of my life! So, if thinking only positive thoughts can mysteriously change everything for the better, why can’t I just do it? It reminds me of other catch 22s in my life. Eating because I’m depressed, being depressed because I’m overweight, being overweight because I eat. If only I weren’t so lazy… then I’d have the energy to exercise. How do you stop something that’s already started and replace it with something even more uncomfortable. How do you pull yourself or push yourself when you barely have the strength to wake up in the morning. …There I go complaining again.