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If it keeps on rainin’ levee’s goin’ to break

The other day I was invited to see a movie with a friend. He paid for the ticket and I was grateful to get out of the house. Anybody that knows me knows that I don’t get out much. I had some popcorn, which was the highlight of the night. The thing that really bothers me is that I didn’t react to anything in the movie. The parts that were supposed to be scary I didn’t jump. I looked around. The parts that were supposed to be funny, I didn’t laugh. I could tell when I was supposed to laugh because the theater audience would laugh and I would just look around. I was just numb. The only thing I’ve been able to feel lately is sadness and frustration. I’ve been faking my feelings around others for a while now. I’ve been depressed since I was 12 but this is something more. Something worse. I’m kinda sick of it. And I’m so damn tired.